To be honest with you, I haven't expected that I'll stay in second life this long when I rezzed for the first time a year ago. It was quite exciting, but there was quite a lot of interesting stuff in the last decade. There are so many nice places in the flatworld. Some got me for a bit, some were a part of my human's everyday routine for years.
First time I became aware of the importance of the rezzday on Dalien's rezzday party. All of a sudden, date of the first time of using something became important. I don't know the date when I used browser for the first time (Netscape Navigator it was) nor I know which year my human got the first computer (Atari 130XE). But the date of registering to second life is a time for celebration.
This should be a moment to recapitulate, to check what was done and what happened. I don't feel like doing that. It is hard to count friends, lovers, parties, places… And it is pointless too. Numbers can deal with years that pass but not with what makes those years valuable. It is also hard to give any predictions about the time to come. Especially if that is me whose future should be predicted. And, if that is this ever-changing and turbulent world we live in. So I'll keep my mouth shot.
Beside the dates, recapitulations and predictions there is a question that humans are especially fond of. The question of getting older. Each year, with every birthday humans are aware that they are a bit older, less healthy, more senile and one step closer to death. Why would I care, I am an avatar, a digital being. My age is just the matter of my appearance, which I can change with a bit of messing the sliders. I am not getting older, at least not in the way that humans do. I am aware that during the past year my human got older one year too and that, due to that mystical connection of the two of us, I am getting more senile and one step closer to death too. Those are not the subject at this moment.
But, maybe we, the avatars, have the different way to get older. Second life changed a lot in the last year. There were about two millions registered users. Voice was announced but still far away. Sculpties too. Gambling was widespread activity. One of the clubs I keep in my picks from that time was on its first location. Recently, it moved to fourth. Recently I met the avie who rezzed during the late beta. It was more than four years ago. Four years! It is not that some things changed. The whole world developed in that time.
We talked for a while and though she is very nice and pleasant person, there was a glimpse of something uncomfortable in me. It is hard to define it. It was not sadness nor melancholy nor boredom nor disappointment. It was…. well, it was all those years seen.
Oh, fuck that. Just kiss me and wish me a happy rezzday :p
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