Believe it or not, I felt like doing something very deviant. I just don't know how it happened, I am very against any RL influences into my second life, especially when it comes to sex or other intimate activities. But it happened. Hell, it is not a disaster like failing to involve condom in RL sex, but still it is something I consider very dangerous activity.

It was no way in the beginning, but we mingled around, doing some everyday public chat, and like it usually happens, we slipped into flirt bit by bit. Then I found us in out of character cyber-sex. I just let it go. It was easy thing to do, cause there was no pose-balls, no usual environment of sex in 3D virtual world. Just two avatars sitting in public place and IM's running back and forward. For people who are not familiar with role-playing terminology, out of character (abbrev. OOC) is way of speaking or acting in virtual world not with your avatar but with your real self - the human.

Psychologically, it is like having no protection layer. No matter how much am I emotionally or in any other way attached to my avatar, no matter how much feelings and emotions avatar and human shares, this was too much.

And then, deux ex machina, there came the second twist. Somewhere in the midland, somewhere between real world and the metaverse, middle character popped up, materializing from nothingness, jumping into centre of action and taking it all to herself. The story I was typing included the girl in RL who never existed, who was the product of my imagination in that moment.

So, there was at least five of us, in the cafe, not moving but doing crazy schizophrenic orgy in the sunny second life noon. Two avatars in the cafe, two humans typing and my middle character getting (and wetting) wild. It took me no longer than couple of seconds to chase away the feeling of guilt, but, surprising or not, there was a sense of cheating. It was direct lying after all.

It is not like illusions done in metaverse. Metaverse is a world of illusions and it is driven by our imaginations. This was kind of different. If you're not into RL emerging into metaverse it is ok, but somehow that line was something that was firm and clear, the line between two worlds. Until now.

But it happened and it was great. It was nice to meet my new emanation. It was nothing like avatar, nor like my human self. Nor something combined. But, at the same time, it was both of them, leaving lot of things to think about after typing is done and client is closed. There is something about it, very convincing, like character played for a long time. She behaved so naturally, so vivid at the moment that I am really pleased to finally meet her. Though middle character emerged as a rescue in potentially dangerous situation, it became danger itself. It can easily come into both worlds. It would be not much of a problem to avatarize her despite the fact that I don't play normal humans. We already seen it in action, she can walk and talk. On the other side of the line, it is not hard for her to roam my real life, once she declared herself to belong to that kingdom. Really, is prolonged activity in metaverse possible road towards schizophrenia?

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